Timid LambdaThoughts, paradoxes, anxieties

A scary thought experiment

23 Apr 2022

Today I had a scary thought experiment. If, suddenly, Manca would declare her love for me, and we would be a thing. Would I then be content? Or am I just attaching my general latent apathy to my inability to be with her? Am I just taking my most recent failure, or obstacle, and ascribing it the full weight of all my failings?

Really, I need to do some life-debugging. What, really, is missing? Or, what would I be missing, even if I had Manca?

  • Job
  • Friends
  • House / living situation
  • Resiliency
  • ?